Day 6 of the Rebellion
Day 2: Andrew's apartment
So much has happened within the past 24 hours as the situation has quickly deteriorated into organized chaos. The police have completely left the scene and the military has taken over the city. There's an APC at the end of the our temporary shelter. Just a week ago I would take a cab, pay my 5 pounds, and cross the street to the university. It's surreal to see such a safe, familiar place turn into a deserted, eerie calm.
Yesterday me Alberto were just waking up at Darci's apartment when we heard a knock on the door. It was Andrew. He couldn't get a hold of us all Friday while the protests turned into riots and lit Alexandria and Cairo ablaze. We had to leave Kafr Abdu to a more "centralized location". Luckily we had packed our emergency bags the night before with all my bare essentials: electronics, toothbrush, change of clothes, passport, and newspapers (for posterity). Darci wasn't happy to get up, or to know that it was Andrew that was making us leave. "Darci, Andrew's here. He says we have to go with him. Muhammed's downstairs waiting to take us in his car. You have to pack a bag." I was furious. While I understood the importance of getting us into one centralized place in case of evacuation, I thought it was asinine to move us to Chatby, closer to Muhatat Ramel and Manchia which was torched not only 10 hours before and where protests seemed to be centralized. My foreignness came back into focus as I trudged downstairs in my pajama pants, coat, backpack, and carrying the dog. The realization that I didn't belong here anymore struck me as Egyptians stared at us walking down the street to our "safe car". I felt my stomach turn. We get to leave, you have to stay here. I thought I'd be back to Kafr Abdu to get my stuff. Thoughts ran through my head. Do I have to pay rent now? What a trivial point at this moment.
Muhammed was irritated at Mubarak. I was too, and I wasn't even Egyptian. I still couldn't believe his speech last night. "I'm with the poor" and "I've worked tirelessly for 30 years to help their situation" and "I've dissolved the government and you will have a new on tomorrow that I will appoint." I would hardly call these solutions. It would later be announced that the head of internal security was appointed vice president. Really? In a country where the people loathe the security forces and the police, it seemed that this appointment wasn't a compromise to the people, but a challenge. Mubarak must be so out of touch, delusional, or clinically insane. It was one of the most foolish political decisions that could have been made. بداية النهاية (beginning of the end) said Muhammed. I wasn't so sure. هو ساب البلد للحرامية، لصووص يعني (he left the country to thieves), referring to Mubarak's rule in general. I felt encouraged by his hope, and by the citizens who were directing traffic instead of the police. The people were really coming together.
Then reality and a slew of haphazard decisions and irritating conversations filled the cold, dusty apartment in Chatby. 9 of us sat together trying to coordinate our plans. The position was still that were still no plans to evacuate. I planned to go home before the 4 pm curfew and at least go pack my bags. Then there was the phone call. The Middlebury program was evacuating. The game changed. With a series of quick phone calls between our holdout and Washington, it was decided we should also evacuate. I was so relieved. My stuff, I wanted to get my stuff. We would get it the next day, starting at 9:30 am. I joked about the investment I had in my material possessions, but I was serious. I have one change of clothes. I brought everything to Egypt. If i left without it, I had nothing. I didn't think things had deteriorated to the point they are today. People started arguing. Many wanted to stay, and Andrew fed the fire with his "expert" assessment of the situation. "We're not leaving unless we are in immediate danger." What the hell does that mean? Why are we waiting until that point? I wanted more of a concrete answer. "Matt, I'm sorry I can't give you more than that. I'm not making those decisions." I became angry. Are you telling me that these idiots in Washington, who have thus far claimed that they're not "going to alter the program in anyway" are in charge of making these assessments? "I told them it's not as bad as it seems on the news," said Andrew. I felt sick. I could be here for a long time because people are not assessing the situation properly. People started arguing whether American Councils has the right to pull us out and if they really had us by contract. Many wanted to stay. I understood how exciting it might be to be here during such a historic moment in Egyptian history, but my gut was telling me it was too dangerous. "There are millions of Egyptians going through the same thing, why would I be any different? Why should I have to leave? I have Egyptian friends and people I know. I just can't believe their friendly smiles would ever turn against me.," claimed one student. "Because we're not Egyptian," I thought. "We're clearly foreign, you're American. The growing anti-American sentiment over this rebellion was becoming clearer by the day. We see more random Egyptians each day rather than those familiar, friendly faces. It's suicide to stay," I thought. It was a naive notion to stay and think our lives would continue as normal or as if we could deal with this. It was idealistic and romantic that the famous "Egyptian generosity and hospitality" would just carry through this. They are people, not machines. As society deteriorates, so does the individual. Another wanted to stay with the host family. After hours of endless speculation and debate over American Council's power over the group, it was handed down that we all had no option, otherwise they would have to pay the entirety of the program fee back. This stopped all conversation, and I thanked God.
I couldn't believe these conversations took place. People kept talking about what they were going to do when they get back when this all "blows over." Opium and comfort for those who just couldn't picture their Egyptian lives ending. I understood that they wanted to get us back here when it was all over, but I think this is an unrealistic expectation. This would spiral into chaos. And it slowly has, even since these conversations took place. As night fell,
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I had to stop writing that day. Too much was happening too fast, and my undivided attention was required. We were assured that we would get our stuff before we had to leave. That dream became unrealistic as we woke up Saturday morning to a phone call by Muhammed that people had broken into a police station, stole guns, and were roaming the streets that morning. Leaving his house was impossible until early afternoon when he came over to see what essentials we needed. He left to grab us food from Fathallah. A deep wave of hopelessness swept over me. The curfew at 3 was creeping up, the last chance to get my stuff was waning. Materials were just that, and I was safe for the time being. But everything I've ever owned and that was important to me was in this country. Andrew said he was sorry I would have to leave my stuff behind. Though his statement was meant to somehow break my stubborn, contemplative silence, I couldn't help but feel angry at him. He was able to pick and choose everything in his apartment that he wanted to take with him. I never had that option. I was told that we probably would not have to evacuate, and even though I insisted, I was not allowed to return from my house back to Darci's to grab more clothes. When it became clear we would be evacuating, I panicked and insistent. But when Muhammad came back, he offered to grab my stuff. He called back an hour later and said that there was no way he could have gotten into my district because the military had taken it over and there was a checkpoint not letting him through. Apparently looters had sacked the neighborhood and no one that didn't live there was allowed in. It was clear I would lose everything because I was stuck in that damn, suffocating apartment. Andrew wouldn't let me leave. "I can't allow you to do that." I was stuck between a rock and hard place. I disdained his existence and his official authority over me, but I was also remembering the men on the streets with guns. I was conflicted, but I stayed. I stayed in that damn apartment and watch the already under-populated streets empty as men with pipes and sticks take over the neighborhood to keep looters and cars out. Rumors of illegal checkpoints set up across the city fueled fears, people being drug out of their cars, beat, and things stolen from them were reported everywhere. As darkness fell in that apartment for a second night in a row, I stood on the balcony. Egypt was silent. I had never seen this before. Not a car to be seen. A tank at the intersection of Port Said and Qanat Suez. The sound of gun shots competing for control over the sound of the lapping Mediterranean waves in the distance pierced through the eerie stillness of Alexandria's revolt. Our neighborhood seemed so safe, but I knew there was no guarantee. I kept thinking of what I said to Dr. Ghabali when he visited us a few weeks prior. "I think there should be a plan in case something happened. We didn't even get a statement from American Councils until 5 days after the church bombing. What are we supposed to do in case of an emergency? We're still not clear. Egypt is secure, but as we saw, that security can change to chaos in a matter of minutes." Dr. Ghabali said he would get back to me. He never did. We only received instructions on emergency procedures a mere 20 minutes before the internet was cut from Andrew. We didn't even follow that. All tangents aside, I thought about how I was right. Egypt's stability was a carefully orchestrated sham. Though inspired by Tunisia's Revolution a few weeks prior, unrest has been building up in Egypt for decades. 40% of the population living off less than $2 a day, 40 million living at or just above the poverty line, police brutality, murder, and disappearances sanctioned under the country's Emergency Law, Mubarak's 30 year rule, fraudulent elections, 30% illiteracy rate…I could go on. It was a matter of time before it exploded into a fury of chaos and a downward spiral into the present situation. I knew Andrew would be wrong all along, but it didn't matter now. I tried to ignore him and his delusional optimism and constant mind changing on key decisions involving my safety, but I couldn't bring myself to do so. One more day, one more goddamn day. We had to get out of that apartment. I was even annoying myself with how difficult I was being. As I walked to the end of the hallway and into the darkness of the kitchen, I looked out from the 11th story onto Chatby and the city lights. Muddled gunshots tore through the air. It was so surreal to see such a safe place become a war zone. I could not believe this was Egypt.
Perhaps the most striking moment of this whole experience was when our professor Radwa came over to check up on us. She had taken part in the protests on Friday. They had walked 20km peacefully, 200,000 strong. That is until men with motorcycles rode up and started wreaking havoc. She said that it was the police that had released thousands of prisoners as they retreated from the cities, and it was them and the plain clothes policemen that had provoked the violence and the destruction. They started burning everything, threatening and beating protesters. She said she had left because the danger and the violent turn it had taken. All while describing her experience, she was speaking so fast, tears, anger, and disbelief in her voice. My eyes teared. "This is not who we are!" she insisted. "These men should be court martialed, Matthew." I agreed. These policemen were only Egyptian in name. They were ferocious animals taking command from one of the most vindictive leader on the planet. "We knew the government was repressive, but we never expected this." It was inhumane, animalistic. To release prisoners onto your population. To cut the internet and all forms of communication off. To withdraw police from the cities. To refuse to step down when everyone hates you. The absolute arrogance was astounding. The whole basis for a government is to govern a people, not to force yourself upon them. A country and a nation should be for and by the people. I know Jeffersonian democratic principles are not an NDP concept, but not even security was being guaranteed by this government, a point it has always pointed to. There was no more legitimacy in this Party, no more credibility. How could Mubarak continue? His speech on Tuesday night (Feb. 1) confirmed his stubborn arrogance. He would not be running, even though he "didn't plan on running again" anyway. Does he think Egyptians are stupid? 8 more months of his rule is not going to quiet the streets, or bring back security. No, the people have been clear: "al-sha'ab youreed isqat al-nizam!" (The people want the regime to fall).
I do wonder how long the People can keep it up though. Yesterday, Feb. 1, over a million people took to Tahrir Square in Cairo, the epicenter of the protests. I had never seen so many Egyptian flags in my life. Never so much national pride, a current that has been relatively latent since I had come here in June. Watching this from Zenit's living room in DC, chills ran down my spine. But rail service had been cut between Alexandria and Cairo, along with the only road. Food was running out in Alexandria, and security was become increasingly an issue in that part of the country. The economy was shut down. How long could people air their grievances before they were forced to return to their work? The government is playing a game of chicken with the People, that much is clear. As Zenit said, it's like a mother letting her daughter scream and throw a fit without giving in and buying the toy. Except this child was starving, abused, and denied her fundamental rights to choose the life she wanted. Social Services would not be called, because the mother was the director. This daughter is at a crossroad. The next few days will determine whether she gets her toy or if she will be silenced. One thing is for certain, the People are no longer afraid of the government and certainly not the police. They have the military on their side. The won't be abandoned, and the police will not be accepted until their oppressive and brutal tactics are officially rescinded. Whatever the outcome, Egypt will emerge a different country. After Friday, it had already changed. It was indeed the start of a Revolution.
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Evacuating the next morning, we had to leave poor, confused little Poopsie with the doorman of the TAFL center. It broke my heart. I realized at that moment that I loved that dog. We drove through Alexandria in our university bus for the last time for a while at least. I tried to take in every last image I could upon my release from our hideout. The mall had been looted of everything, tanks deployed all around it. Our NDP sanctioned exit out of the city made me a bit sick, as did the fact that Dr. Ashraf, Dean of the University, was affiliated with the Party. I felt like I had betrayed principle being evacuated under the auspices of Mubarak's regime. Our flight to Amman was delayed, and I afraid we would be stranded at the airport. This was not before a panicked, childish Andrew threw a fit at the checkin line and yell "ALRIGHT, ALL THE AMERICANS RAISE YOUR HANDS!" in front of hundreds of Egyptian and Arab travelers. Yeah, those were American tear gas canisters, "Made in the USA" stamped across them. They all knew it. I felt as if I died inside as I yelled back in a reflex of anger. "ANDREW, DON'T YOU EVER DO THAT AGAIN!" This antagonism continued the whole trip, especially when we arrived in Amman and we were about to miss our connection. A panicky Andrew was yelling at the top of his lungs at the travel agent to get us out of the airport. We had to go tot he connections desk and said in a most whiney voice "WILL SOMEONE JUST PLEASE GO STAND IN THE LINE." "ANDREW WE ARE IN LINE!" "NO WE'RE NOT." "THERE IS NO GODDAMN LINE, THIS IS AN ARAB COUNTRY!!!!" I exploded, I couldn't believe it. I had never been under the direction of such an incompetent child. I blamed my program for hiring him. He was not the man for the job. I missed Robyn. I knew that she would have had all the answers, calm and collected, and responsible. But Robyn was a one-in-a-million find; not too many programs were blessed with her inherent personal skills and her uncanny ability to make problems disappear. I missed her at that moment, my very rare resentment for another human taking the humanish form in Andrew. What a toolbox.
On the plane, we called Professor Nahla to tell her we were leaving then. I talked to her: "tawhishini giddin giddin!" (I miss you so much) I said. She began to cry as she said she missed me too. I cried. It hit me all the people I was leaving. It was so unfair. I hated Mubarak and the NDP. I'm glad their HQ was burned to the ground and he had to contend with the anger of 80 million people. He will pay. If not in this life, then the Next.
Sitting in Reagan International waiting for my flight to board to go back to Detroit, I remember these moments that will no doubt shape my future, how I will look at the world, and inform the future course of my studies. They are the lens through which I will see my world. We'll see what the next week brings. Things are turning so fast, it's a total system shake up. I'll keep my cautious doubts about progress, with an optimistic squint to the future.